by Patricia Potts
It’s 2:00 A.M. and I’ve been up since 1:00 with neck pain. Who would have thought that pulling a turtle-neck sweater over my head could cause me so much trouble? I’ve already been to the chiropractors twice and I’m going again tomorrow. Yet, with a degenerative neck disorder, I guess I should have known that such a thing could happen. I should been more careful when I tried wriggling and then forcing my head through that narrow opening like a babe pushing her way into the world.
As I rub muscle relaxant over the base of my neck and chug a few exedrine down the hatch, I think of other situations in my life where I should have been more aware and protective of my weaknesses.
Times when I should have stayed out of conversations where there was negative comments being made rather than finding myself adding to the fuel then feeling the after pains of judgment. Times when I put myself into situations where I agreed to do things out of approval addiction then felt the tight grip of guilt as I found that I couldn’t follow-through. Times when I didn’t tell the whole truth so I wouldn’t “get into trouble” with someone then felt an accusing conscience “prick me” as I realized that I should retrace my steps and be fully honest.
Now, as I consider whether to try to take my weary neck back to bed or whether to start the day early I hope that I will recognize and admit my weaknesses more fully and avoid the turtle-necks in my life. (By the way, I’m giving away my turtle neck sweater. Any takers?)